Insomnia and other treasures

It is currently 5:30 am. I have been up since 3 am. I am the only one in my house that is awake. Every one is asleep. Even my sweet little baby has been sleeping all night.

Now, I am trying very hard to stay positive about this. I mean, it's quiet in the house. I was able to eat a bowl of cereal. Go to the bathroom. Check my email.
All with out interruption.

But seriously though body...WHAT THE FUCK!?

I am no stranger to sleepless nights. I have got one of those little Hamster in the Plastic Ball kind of brains that just spins and spins. In the past, these nights have caused me much frustration and tears. I would usually toss and turn for hours and usually I would end up waking the Hubs so he could console me and pet my hair.

Tonight I tried something a little different. While tomorrow (today) is bound to suck just as hard at least I am not crying or super frustrated at this point. I didn't feel right about waking the Hubs and after trying several of my usual tricks (including several sleep locations) I decided to give up. And, if I keep to my positive theme...I cam muster a bit of enjoyment out of the peaceful darkness that surrounds me as I sit cocooned, wrapped in a quilt on my living room sofa. Oooo...Maybe I should make tea.

Having said all that... you must know that I am wide awake. I am freakin' tired and what kind of a freak can't sleep when their whole family is sleeping!


Anyhoo,

A year ago today, I went to the doctor after peeing on three pregnancy tests and seeing for the first time the two pink lines I had always dreamed of seeing!

Not a day goes by, sleepless night or not, that I do not truly believe that I am the luckiest woman alive.

Ruby is 4 months old today!

Have I mentioned how much I love her lately?

Some of her most popular tricks these days include:

-her two canines
-rolling on to her side
-batting at objects
-yelling at toys
-smiling and laughing
-sitting- for a couple of seconds
-lap standing and being pulled up to a standing position
-being really cute
-crying
-pooping
-sleeping- naps are still hit and miss
-grabbing and holding
-biting
-sticking everything in her mouth -very cute
-drooling
-flirting
-kicking
-looking at books
-holding her head up and steady
-burping and farting


Ummm... There's probably more but that's all I can think of right now. Still though, I find it mind boggling. How could this petite little being have grown inside me, emerged, be fed just by me and grow to be a completely separate and unique human being. It really does blow my mind. On a daily basis.

Another mind blowing fact is that the Hubs and I when on our first date sans
baby last Saturday. Ruby stayed at home with her Grandparents. They were in town for Ruby's first Thanksgiving. Which by the way went off quite well. We were exhausted (We really haven't been sleeping well- and it doesn't have anything to do with Ruby!) but both sets of grand parents were here along with the hub's sister and my brother. The food was delicious, thanks hubby o 'mine and both families got along great. Ruby was the center piece as we all huddled around her play mat with our meal on our laps in our tiny living room.

I digress. See what insomnia can do! It's affecting my blogging even!

So, It was nice to go out to have a meal and chat uninterrupted but we found the whole experience a tad overrated. Perhaps we're just lame. Had their been energy for mind blowing lovin' our opinion might have been different. We did not talk about the baby the entire time but when we returned after a couple of hours the Grandparents were disappointed. "We're just getting to the good stuff! they explained as they tried to shoo us back out the door. Needless to say there had been several outfit changes and at least one photo shoot.

I am sure their will be many more sleepless nights, dates and grandparent inspired photo shoots in our future.

And you know what?

I couldn't be happier.

Busses, Books and Biting

I can not believe how time races by. Next Thursday, our precious baby will be 4 months old already. Now that Ruby is here, in our lives, we feel so happy and fulfilled. Plus, not a day goes by without an amazing array of kick ass baby skills.

BOOKS
When I started showing her baby cloth and board books when she was just a wee thing, she did not show much interest. These days she's been going hog wild over them. She screeches, flaps her arms, kicks her legs, and bounces up and down in my lap as she tries to grab at the pages. Our very first trip to the library was a huge success, yielding plenty of good screams/reads.

BUSES
Last Thursday the weather here got a little nasty. It was awesome. Fall was in full force as leaves whipped around in the wind and the rain pelted down. Instead of walking or driving to do our usual rounds of errands, chores and mommy/baby groups...We (I) decided we should take the bus. You know, spice things up a bit,live on the wild side. Crazy- I know it~!

The bus was great even though it took us an hour and a half return trip of what would have taken 20 minutes in the car. As far as the mommy/ baby group goes...I'm not sure it's my thing. I would like the chance to meet new moms like myself. But the problem is that I really am A Bit of a Dude and I did not find that kind of setting super enthralling. It's hard to explain...I guess I am an odd one. I'm not saying, Never shall I return to baby group. I am just saying, I wonder what else is out there?

BITING
Although quite painful, this is by far my most favourite development. It out shines the lap standing, the toy batting, the coos, gurgles and the attempted semi-rolls.

MY BABY HAS TEETH! What the fuck!? Seriously?

Yup. I did see this coming but then I totally forgot about it. Ruby started drooling profusely at about 2 months. Everyone thought, for sure she is too young to start teething...However, after reading up on the subject I confirmed that it could be happening.

The drooling was followed by sucking and then shoving everything within reach into the mouth orifice. Then there were three strait, frustrating days of mid afternoon screaming followed by several more days of irritability. It wasn't until I noticed her rosy cheeks and Bum that I decided to send in a finger for investigation.

That's when I discovered them. Well one, the other one I spied later that day.
Teeth! Teeth nubs anyhow. Her two bottom canines. I was so proud. I was so freaking sad/happy. My little girl is growing up.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't cry.
I did.
I balled my freaking eyes out.

Reading, Riding and now teeth all at 3.5 months.
Lets not get carried away little girl.

Maybe she wants to be a vampire for Halloween. Hummm...

In other news, I think I may be ovulating. I felt a little crampy the other day and noticed a bit of CM. Of course, I have been moody for ages so we can't use that as an indicator can we now? Bloated? Maybe...It's hard to tell. I've got a bit of a belly going on.

Interesting. The poor Hubs, after years of infertility he is a bit confused. "Does that mean we do it? Or we don't do it now?"

By the way, is anyone else out there excited about Thanksgiving this weekend? I know we are around here. There's going to be a whole lot of family (Baby Lovers) and turkey eaters at our house this year.

Bring it on!