Boot Camp Blues

So.
Boot Camp was great last Thursday.
It was outside. I sweat. I smiled. I chatted with other Boot Camp Mamas.

But then I obsessed. I googled. I saw the health nurse and called the doctor...
You see, I was really quite surprised that the course included running. Don't get me wrong- I love to run -but I was pretty sure 3 months was too soon for Baby. I had imagined something quite similar to what we did but without the bursts of jogging.

Finally, after too many waffley sounding answers, I phoned a friend. A friend that knows EVERYTHING about babies. (She knows so much in fact that it makes me a tad nervous.) A friend that would give me a straight, informed, honest, answer. Even if it wasn't the answer I wanted to hear.

She is an Infant Development Consultant. If you need answers on any toy, activity, exercise, food, developmental stage, worry or poop colour -She's the one to call. Just don't tell her that your Bumbo Chair is on the kitchen table or that you've got a Jolly Jumper - Or you're going to get it!

Sure enough, after I checked in with her, I learned- No Running with baby until at least 6 months! She said, "Did you drink when you were pregnant? Did you surf or ski? Why take the risk? It is not worth it!"

Of course, I cried.

I'll blame it on hormones but I just felt so conflicted. I want to do the right thing for my precious girl. I want to get fit. I want to play out side with her and other moms and babes. People run with their babies all the time, I thought. So why did I feel so nervous about it? Why is my gut telling me -it's too soon?

Just because I was looking for a "Yes", and I wanted to ignore what my heart knew all along, I contacted the BOB stroller people. They sealed the deal by saying 8 months- especially if you're going off road.

There you go.
So, sadly,and I really do mean sadly - Boot Camp is nixed for now.
The leaders were very understanding and are going to refund my money. I am hoping to sign up again in the spring. I quite certain that I'll still have extra booty to Boot Camp off by then.

No matter how whiny this sounds- you have to understand that I really do want to do what is best for my little Ruby. We waited way too long and we love her way too much to blow it all for some cheap, sweaty, spandex covered thrills.

I've got my whole life ahead of me. I know I'll get my groove back and become the hot yummy mommy I've always dreamed of being. But these early months with my baby girl are fleeting and I am going to savour every last drop.

Thank goodness for my breast pump and my evening Bikram and Bellyfit classes!

Hummm...Maybe I can use my refund to sign up for that Hip Hop Class I've been eyeing up?

"Oh honey, hubby, oh darling of mine... Can I go out tonight?"