Home Tomorrow.

Tomorrow we'll be home.

It's been a busy week.

We've been to Atlanta to visit my hubster's parents and all in all it was a lovely time. It was great to hang with family and as you can imagine we were loved and spoiled-up something fierce. Atlanta, to me, is a pleasant yet surreal place. I come from a small west coast mountain town on Vancouver Island.British Columbia. Canada.

Needless to say that I find the malls, money, people, cars, freeways, plastic surgery, and consumption of big city USA super overwhelming.

Air travel was sponsored by Adavan...and so my first flight in 6 years was not as bad as I had anticipated.

Over the last several days I have had a few 'no-baby' inspired sad moments.
The most significant being the day I called my Doctor for test results. I called with my
father-in- law's cell phone from outside the tapas bar,Grape, at Atlantic Station. After a lovely morning of elbowing our way through throngs of people at The World's Largest Aquarium, I learned that, yes, it does still appear that I have PCOS.

Merry Christmas.

My January 5th specialist appointment seem years away.

I didn't let this news stop my quest for sweet baby lovin'. I continued charting, brought Pre-Seed and we stuck to our schedule of magical deed doing as if an egg was going to arrive. Perhaps by sleigh... I still believe in Santa Claus.

I still believe.

Here's hoping...

don't panic

The nurse called and said my doctor wanted to see me. Unfortunately, I've learned over the past few months that these visits are rarely uplifting.

Today, my Doctor wanted to go over the most recent bout of blood tests. These results are confusing. Progesterone. ok. Ovulated. yes- but not sure when. Pregnant? Sadly, no. FSH and LH hormones way outta wack. Reversed, I believe, is the way she put it. So, we've ordered up another batch of blood tests just to be certain that I am as hormonally random as we think I am.

She thinks I may have PCOS, which, after several hours of on-line research, I am not thrilled about.

Yes. I cried. But I am not panicking-Yet.

At any rate, We are both glad that I have a specialist's appointment in the new year because basically I am all over the map and a baby doesn't seem to be in my future unless there is a major intervention of some kind.

My next acupuncture is on day 8. I am looking forward to the calming and nurturing effect it has on me.

Hoping...

Appointment

I have a fertility specialist appointment... Next year.
It's not so bad... January 6, 2007.

Also, I am going to go to acupuncture again. Acupuncture was awesome. My treatment was very calming and I loved the length and thoroughness of it all. My session focused on soothing my sad heart, claming my mind and supporting what may be happening in my uterus. I'm on cycle day 26 right now. On my next visit, my Doctor is going to have a medicinal herbal mix for me as well as a list of dietary suggestions. There was so much information flowing but I think she may have said that I am slightly yang deficient. At any rate, I'd better eat lots of gingersnaps this week because I am almost positive that sugar, my number one vice and the root of all evil, is going to be on the hit list.

Like I said, I'm on cycle day 26 so at this point I am allowing my self to dream little dreams. I did have a temperature shift on my chart and I also had an energy burst on the night of cycle day 20 (the cross-country skiing night). Cervical mucus was trickier this month though...either that or I just missed it. I may or may not have ovulated. I go for my day 28 blood test on Friday.
Then we'll know.

Here's hoping.